I am going to start by daily talking about each video I have made so far and analysing what I think of it, how it compares to videos from people who do have some fame and rationalise ideas as to how I can get it out there.
Today I am going to talk about my oldest videos that are no even availible publicly any more because frankly if I really want to make it in this world I'm going to have to not allow my personal beliefs and view points to be well known, because frankly people are judgemental assholes and would not bother to look at your work if they know something about you that offends them.
I am part of a minority and my youtube channel was originally about me expressing my views and opinions about something that many people would be offended for me to even bring up. No I'm not Gay, no I'm not a Pedophile, no I'm not a necrophiliac, no i'm not a murderer. But to some people i'm something that is actually somehow worse then all of those. I will let you try and guess what that could posibly be and I would rather keep it as a separate alias from the one that is trying to get a career in entertaining people that could be turned of by simply knowing who I really am.
Anyway the point is that the past 3 or so years were spent making standard video blogs on Youtube and went from the the humblest of beginning where I simply uploaded a video talking about how I agreed with someone's position and was record using nothing but my Mum's handheld video camera. I accidently uploaded it directly from the device sideways. This was because I didn't even think to use any video editing software. So my first video was a dude talking who literally looked like this :). I was actually quite ashamed of the n00bness of this video and shortly after deleted it and decided I was too shy and nervious to show my face and so only filmed myself showing my forehead which is what this picture is from
. Anyway my next few videos were me doing short unedited comedic skits of me making fun of the secret thing that I disagree with.I then continued to make videos where I would write a couple of dot points on a piece of paper and then try to speak to the handheld camera for several minutes in one take, it was tedious as I would often have to start over from the beginning and even when I would finish there would be a lot of uhs... and ers... as fillers as I was trying to figure out what to say next.
By this point was was discovering a lot of other people that agreed with my point of view and had been making videos about it for a whole year before I started. Yes, Youtube was only a year old back then. It was this support and sense of community that inspired me to make more and more videos and eventually I started making jokes about how I hide my face and then when I finally got a webcam, I began the video wearing a teatowel around my face since I was finally in full view sitting in front of the camera and this one didn't need to be held and 10 seconds in removed the towel and finally revealed myself and began making the video normally like everyone else.
The whole experience was fun though and I really enjoyed having the identity amounst the community as the guy who only showed his eye and forehead and enjoyed the joke I made a my expense about the whole thing. So I now had to find a new way to make my videos unique amounst the now many others that there were. It turned out that the minority that I was a part of was a lot more outspoken against the majority we were persecuted by. So at this point the production of my videos slowed down to barely 5 a year, due mostly to the fact that I was now out of school and had a 40 hour a week job.
Working life sucked especially in the bottom of the class chain job I was in. No need to hide this one, I was a grocery assistant at a supermarket. That place made me depressed most of the time and rather then wanting to do something constructive with my rare time was always wanting to just chill out and play video games. While I was working there I studying a networking adminitration course that I hope to lead to a career in Information Technology and was at the time pretty dead set that this was what I wanted to do and was actually inspired and encourage to this career path by IT Crowd. I thought it would be cool to be considered intelligent by people even if I reenforced my nerdy and outcase social status.
So next I got an apprentiship as a printer repair techinician. Not exactly was I was aiming for but took it because it included taking a general IT course as part of the training, so I could have quit after my 4 year apprentiship was up and become and IT Guy (I always thought that title sounded cool). But I failed the apprentiship and got booted out after 3 the month probationary period.
Between that job and my next one I had a lot more free time and began the second part of my journey towards becoming a filmmaker. Well okay I not actually a filmmaker yet but I am writing this blog in case I finally get there and I can have a record I can look back on when I actually do become famous and maybe even make into a biography and there are still many more parts to this story before I actually catch you up to where I am now.
So in the next part I will conclude the rest of my journey through being a video activist and then toward making videos to entertain people genrally and doing it for fun not just because I believed in a cause.
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